Do you understand how hard it is to concentrate on something, with all the distractions in the world?

If yes, then you can understand my situation today, as I urgently attempt to concentrate on learning some stuff, and instead, I am instinctively going to Twitter, where I have purposefully deactivated my account just yesterday.

It’s not enough, but it’s a start, because the situation has already become critical for me.

I am currently not trying to be the best in everything, I am just trying to survive going through two big exams. I am unable to concentrate on the topic I am trying to learn, even though I am in a quiet environment, distracted maybe by the lights and one other person clicking the keyboard.

I am not yet desperate, but definitely coming close. The mask mandate inside building definitely does NOT help, and even I am not obeying it in a room where my only focus should be to study or rest, because it is a distraction; would you believe that my back also aches? And while it’s not too much, it definitely makes it harder for me to concentrate.

I mean… Fuck me. Hard. I’ve already had my panic episode (not a panic attack, phew) a few days back and I am not sure it won’t repeat.

Now that I have written my heart out… back to writing some algebra.